Personality Changes

I was reminded this week how many people understand about the symptom of memory problems with Alzheimer's disease, but don't understand that personality changes can also be a symptom.  I spoke with a couple that were clearly overwhelmed with trying to make care arrangements for his father.  They understood that he was not making good decisions because of the disease.  Yet the son was so hurt by some of the words and actions of his father.  We have developed such keen abilities to make judgments about what people are feeling based on their words and actions.  We do it without thinking.  We continue to use those same skills when someone we love has Alzheimer's disease.  We forget that behaviors and words are the result of thoughts and the thought process is disrupted in Alzheimer's disease.  I've seen so many people who continue to judge the status of their relationship based on current behaviors and words which then causes them so much pain.  Instead, we need to insert a new way of processing words and actions when someone we love has Alzheimer's.  We need to actively remind ourselves that the disease is influencing what our loved one says and does.  And then comes the detective work to try and figure out what they are trying to communicate, which is a topic all by itself.  I guess that is one of the most difficult things about the disease, the individual is no longer the person we knew.

The family ended up needing to find a secure facility and so the man did not come to stay at my assisted living.  The experience was a reminder to me to be sure to inform families about likely personality changes.  I hope I was a help to them and I sure wish them the best as they continue this journey.

Preparing for the marathon

The monthly Caregiver Support Group was this past Thursday.  I was reminded as the participants talked of their experiences, that dealing with dementia is a marathon for families and friends.  Interestingly, my husband is a runner preparing for his first marathon.  His training has a lot to teach me about how to deal with this illness.  One of my worst habits is worrying.  Mostly I think about all the "what ifs".  I tell myself it is so I can plan ahead.  But mostly it is a bad habit that steals my ability to enjoy the here and now by focusing on things that may never even happen.  My husband tells me about how his training for the marathon is just as much about what goes on in your head as it is training your muscles.

One of the women in the support group is such an inspiration.  They have been dealing with Alzheimer's disease for about 5 years now.  Her outlook is absolutely inspiring.  She takes one day at a time and deals with what ever is going on right now.  She finds joy in the every day as she can.  She knows things will get worse, but she doesn't focus on that.  Such a lesson for me, the professional, to learn.  We are early in the illness and things are off kilter, but manageable.  I need to enjoy my life now and not waste the time worrying about what will come in the future.  I need to remember that God has a plan.  Through experience, I know He will provide at the right time.  I need to print out the Bible verse Mathew 6:34 and carry it with me.  "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.  Each day has enough trouble of its own."  I know that for myself, my faith will be an important part of dealing with this illness.  So here's to enjoying today!

Importance of early diagnosis

Mom has not had an official diagnosis yet.  I was talking with one of my assisted living  family members the other day about how frustrating it is when the doctor spends 5 to 10 minutes, doesn't see anything and assumes you are over reacting. Seriously, is this something anyone really thinks I want to be right about?  Of course my dad doesn't want to see it.  He watched my grandmother decline to where she didn't recognize my mother and how hard that was for my mother.  I have one brother that agrees with me, one that does not.  My husband sees it, my good friend said she saw warning signs two years ago at my youngest son's graduation.  But when we are playing dominoes, a game you played with my 20 something children every night during the 8 summers they spent with you and we have to explain where the dime line is every time it is your turn-there is a problem.  You know how many turns there are in a game of double 9's?

Every day I am confronted with people who waited too long to admit there was a problem.  There's the long distance truck driver trying to find care arrangements in a hurry so he can return to his job.  The sister trying to figure out how to pay for care because her brother made some poor financial decisions because of the disease.  The family that now has to go through the court process of guardianship so they can prevent poor decisions.  And every day I have someone call me who knows their loved one needs care but assumed someone else would pay for it.  My favorite was the person who came out and said to me "he doesn't want to use his money to pay for care".  Oh how I wanted to say "Well who's money would he like to use?"  Medicaid is getting very strict on individuals needing to have skilled nursing needs in order to qualify.  So many people out there stuck in very bad situations because they were in denial, didn't want to offend their loved one, on and on.  So no, I don't want to be right about the diagnosis, but I don't want to end up making decisions in a crisis like so many people I talk to every day.