Monday, June 25, 2012

It's different when it's personal

During my weekly phone call to my parents, I let myself become annoyed.  We were talking about my job, which is unusual in itself because I usually spend an hour saying, "yes, uh-huh".  And my Mom made a comment about how terrible it was.  Here is the person who has championed my career for years and in fact raised me to believe your career was the most important part of your life, now criticizing my helping profession.  I let my emotions get the better of me and I flipped off, "no it would be much better to let someone stay at home who was not safe and let them start the house on fire and die unnecessarily like someone did here locally a few weeks ago, than to have them move to assisted living".  Then as usual, looking back on the conversation, (and after reading a chapter in a new book I got called Speaking Alzheimer's) I realize that the same job she once praised me for and was so pleased about when we were both younger, is completely different now that it may apply to her.  When she said, it is terrible to think about giving up everything you have and living in one room, she was realizing that is an option she may soon be facing.  My problem is that I have to figure out how to have these insights before it is too late instead of realizing after it is over.

I think my only hope is to rely on the wisdom of God and pray for insight before I call.  No matter how many years of experience I have in the field, I need the wisdom and leading of God to handle this the right way when it comes to my own family.  God grant me the wisdom before the conversation, rather than after.

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